Wednesday 1 October : Day after chemo. What's going on ?

All this is new to me.

I ask myself with curiously,   I wonder what's going on inside me now ?  What is going to happen now?

On leaving hospital , they give me meds and tell me:

- Watch out for high temperature.
- So what's high ? I ask.
- 38C
- If your temperature is 38 C then head straight for Akuten - we need to check what's going on

OK ....

Alex comes to fetch me at the hospital after lunch . We decide to take the bus . Free taxi trips need to be planned in advance, so too much bother .
13:30 - I'm home again , Alex says goodbye to me at the lift .
Will you be ok ?
Yes of course
Good to be home

Time for a power nap .

17:30

So now , I am having dinner ( fish fingers , mashed potato homemade coleslaw , green tea ) and spirited passionate conversation with  soul sister  friend Gunilla. I start to feel my face burning . I feel flushed and feel and see that my cheeks are rosy , as if from sunburn.

I don't feel ill
I am feeling aroused
I am feeling empowered
I am feeling strong

" Something has to die for something to be born "

The right side of my throat feels sore , but my I don't feel ill
Temperature  check 37:0 C - it's ok

Gunilla leaves after washing up . Bless !

I catch the end of Emmerdale , where Edna's ex husband tells her to set bitterness aside , stop tormenting herself with what has been and start living and enjoying the present  " neither of us have that much more time left " he says , one old person / friend to another .

Listening to Jo Dunning / Darius  FANTASTIC - ( more about that later )

Everything in Life is intended to be a blessing

Inside of me is a part of me that knows how to get from where I am to where I need to be. 

Temperature check - 36.9 C .. good , I'm fine :-)
Night night