Saturday, 04 October 2014
Mind speeded
thoughts coming all the time
tremendous need to SELF EXPRESS
interruptions
not easy to be still
silence 21 minutes interrupted by phone ringing twice - no one there
odd
darius and panache call last night was disappointing
sounded contrived
two soul brothers , love them dearly, all heart and soul , passion , belief in cause , desire to share with the world , live their soul signature .... AND
pushing the river
forcing
smells of marketing
not authentic
magic tricks
breathe .... mara .. breathe
this is good
thoughts slowing down as I get them out
YES
need to self express for me is great
sing , shout , havana gilla , like monty python character silent for years until Brian jumps on him and he starts to speak .... he can’t stop ... and brian is just wanting him to shut up as he is running from his followers
Phew
share on FB graduates
dear souls
phone anna-stina .. catch up ,, it's been a while
dressed now in many layers - feeling thinner
want breakfast
food now
hungry
time flying by
energy of self- expression need dissipating now
what’s that all about ?
eagerness
impatience
running before I can walk
grounding needed
ie food
hyper hyper .. uncontrolled now ... is good
wild release
to hell with consequeces
wild abandon
freedom
flying
disregard for niceities and political correctness and treading on toes
blurting things out
heaven help us
BUT
This is authentic
TRUE
and that is what I am after
to be TRUE to myself
Who am I ?
I am changing all the time
This reminds me of PS days 90s
Feels good to let it out
Typing is easier to read than handwriting
hope I am catching the essentials
handwriting is quicker
here I need to stop and correct spelling
censor
automatic censoring
13:17 FB
AIswarya ((((hugs ))) beautiful soul , I love you and thank you xxx <3 Yes , being diagnosed with bladder cancer is an awakening a strange blessing and curse . I was dreading the chemo and daunted by the road ahead .. BUT .. at the same time I feel empowered, liberated , free .. wild abandon ... surrounded by souls who love and hold me and that is AMAZING . Need to self -express is great right now .... no holds barred or regard for political correctness .. I feel I am going to BLUSRT it all out ..lol like now .. when <3 <3<3 heaven help us hehehe THANK YOU xxx
Friend Mel asks : Is it wise to let it all hang out , caution to the wind ?
Don't know
Just know that what is in needs to come out
She who dares ... eh ?
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