DAY 4 : Diarrhoea .

01:00- 01 ; 30  Loo and runny poo

Slept through the night and a dream . In the dream  Monica and I take a bus to a small town with a shops around the square. We are looking for an address , shop or premises situated near the square . Directions vague and unclear.  I buy some padded soles for my shoes, to ease pinching. A leisurely feeling of exploring without demands and expectations.


08:30 Good morning world. Grateful for a good night's sleep. Tummy a little upset , gurgling and making noises , more runny poo, but, emptying feels good. No cramps. Better to purge down than up, I say .

Thinking about losing weight and my weight story . I have plenty of reserves , so not concerned , just curious. I seldom weigh myself , but consulting diary from Novermber 2013, I see 82kilos . Latest weight at hospital  78.6 kilos. Some weight gone without  even trying. Mid twenties , just before getting pregnant  , I was a slim 52kilos.  A decade or so later I attained that weight again through conscientiously  following The Beverly Hills Diet for a few months or maybe even a year .However, over the years that followed decided ' eff all that ..... I am going to eat , eat sensibly , healthily but what I damn well like .. and take the consequences. ( avoiding junk, processed foods, soft drinks etc with artificial stuff ) And so it was and so it is. I love and enjoy my food , preparing food and socialising over food and drink . Nuff said. Maybe all that will change now ? Who knows.

Cloudy drizzly day outside . Magpies chattering loudly outside in the yard exchanging gossip.
Anti nausea meds , 8 tiny fizzy tablets in water today, cutting down from 16. Cortisone ,  they say.

Sipping a glass of hot water, following on with green tea and a banana and maybe porridge  today.
09: 25  TTFN ....  catch you later