Wednesday . Day after chemo 2;2 . Bread, ginger nuts , meditation

Good afternoon , Blog, Bladder and Buddies :-)

It's a dull , grey , damp and misty day here.

Slept well and woke around 8 am taking time to linger in bed and wake up slowly. Decided last night that this would be a dressing gown day of BE-ING and pottering around , but in the end got dressed in orange , yellow and green autumn colours , with my long woollen knitted socks from Riga on my feet.

BODY :
Washed hair , which is still thinning out, scalp is tender in places , so decided to massage in some Bio Oil .

I'm leaking urine a little , so wearing Tena Lady incontinence pads . Have had to change knickers a couple of times during the course of the morning, to deal with the damp. Wonder if this is normal and why it is happening and if it is something I will have to learn to live with , or if it is temporary and just something to get used to and put up with for a while . Otherwise urine is clear . No pain . No blood and haemorrhoids also feel fine . YAY :-)

My stomach is a bottomless pit and when I decide what to eat , it always tastes good and I find myself scoffing it all down too quickly and greedily . Pace yourself , girl ! Savour , chew and enjoy. Today , couple of slices of home made bread , boiled egg mixed with mayonnaise , banana and citrus green tea as well as a slice of freshly baked bread as it came out of the oven and one ginger nut biscuit. - also  made this morning . Scent of ginger , lilies , bread and tea pervade my home and space today . Divine sensual pleasures .

FEELING :  content. relaxed, a bit weak and dithery , shaky , light , empty in a good way ; spacious . dreamy

MIND and SPIRIT :

Listened to Day 3 of Oprah and Deepak's  meditation challenge :

Day 3 — The Source and Goal of Desire

Your true self is not only the beginning of desire, it is also the end, or fulfillment, of desire. This infinite potential, energy, and intelligence of unbounded consciousness is the real energy of attraction. Today we will discover that we don’t need to do anything, or go anywhere to access the energy of attraction. It is our own true self.

In today’s meditation, we will awaken this energy of attraction within, and harness its power to bring our desires to fulfillment. This activation of desire at its source sets the direction for our thoughts and actions to lead it toward its actualization. Attaining the goal of our desires brings an inner fulfillment and contentment that returns us again to our silent source of awareness. 

Our centering thought for today is:

My true self contains every possibility.

Day 3

The Source and Goal of Desire

CENTERING THOUGHT

My true self contains every possibility.

SANSKRIT MANTRA

Ananta Swa Bhava

My Being is without beginning or end. 

BEAUTIFUL

xxx